Politics 101: The ABC’s


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If you think you’re a Democrat and supported Hillary because you are pro marijuana, pro choice or pro LGBT rights, then you are just on the surface of understanding the deeper complexities of politics.  I’m not here to assuade you into converting and supporting my political beliefs.  But I want everyone out there to be free thinkers and decide for themselves.

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The debate.

We all have our views, and if we were to become politicians we would all be considered lobbyists. Because everyone is lobbying for some right for financial benefactor.  So all of this nonsense to “drain the swamp” is impossible, because nobody genuinely gets involved in the ugly, sticky web of politics because they love America and want to save the country.  Everyone has an agenda and if you think they’re just all patriotic nationals who want to save us, OPEN YOUR EYES.

One thing I can’t stand is not staying objective.  I love politics and you have to respect others opinions to fully enjoy it.  You have to have an understanding that no side is right nor wrong, but you have to be accepting of others views even though they differ from your own. The reason I like debating politics is because you become more informed.  Even if you don’t agree, you understand what the opposing sides are saying about each  other and sometimes even enlightened to more information on subjects in the media that you may have not covered.  If you’re going to debate politics you can’t take it personal.  But when people disagree, they start to take it personal.

Calling someone racist when debating a racial subject is elementary and amateur.  Politicians avoid race baiting subjects because they don’t want the labels.  I commend Trump for boldly addressing these issues, although they backlashed with him being labeled as a racist.  Or when someone attacks your personal credentials and puts themselves on a pedestal by displaying their education, rewards, merits etc.  Hypothetically if I didn’t graduate high school and caught the bus to IHOP to wait tables every day, but was just really well read, doesn’t make my views less credible than someone with an education who brags about their overachievements.  I’ve had some of the most idiot conversations with some of the most supposedly educated people.

So I was a stripper for 12 years.  I get this rebuttle so much. What does that have to do with anything?  My opinions are invalid because your narrow minded judgements of who I am invalidates my intelligence.  Then why are you debating with me if I’m such a low life in the first place?  A conservative would judge your as a gay left wing abomination.  And you look at me like I’m an uneducated moral-less stripper. And I look at prostitutes and drug addicts like they’re trash.  And they look at rapists and serial killers as bottom of the barrel.  But the rapists and serial killers rape the terrorists and treasonists in prison.  Anyways… everyone wants to put everyone on a pedestal.  But I’ve learned to accept differences and pick your opponents.  Arguing with a close minded, ignorant and uneducated person with different lifestyles serves me no purpose.

The Issues.

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Be sure you are informed on the issues.  It’s easy to get caught up in pop culture and media that we don’t even know what the issues are.  What is important to you?  I am extremely pro life.  I’m anti-illegal immigration, and I’m a big believer that we need to revisit our trade policies and military spending.  Our economy is suffering and this is due to taxation and globalism.  We need to incentivize our American companies to grow our economy.  We’re losing too many industries to globalism.  Isis is a huge problem and we need a new plan. I’m republican on taxes and republican on many of these major issues.

HOWEVER… when I was younger I considered myself a Democrat.   This was because I have liberal social views ie. welfare, take care of the people, the planet, gay rights, pro choice and pro marijuana.  So, today I have molded to a centrist or rockafeller/progressive Republican.  I am very liberal and modern on social issues because I’m not a religiously driven political person on my moral high ground, like most conservatives.

Take the time to read the issues on each politicians views on the issues.  You’d be surprised how much you really agree with someone who you may have first judged.  I was in support of Rand Paul.  Knowing he didn’t have a chance, I started to look at Cruz and Trump.  I started to see I had less in common with a more conservative Cruz, and more in common with liberals like Clinton and Bernie Sanders.  However, Trumps message and stances were clear to me and his middle of the road stances were more appealing than a conservative.

The Left and the Right.

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There are different degrees of being on the right, the left and in the center.  I don’t like to label myself in one specific party.  Most people want to stereotype each party to the most extreme, but the truth is that there are good points on both sides.  We just need to be informed, and make a decision and be a free thinker for what best resonates in our hearts and minds.

I have said this (with much back lash) that I think social issues like gay rights, marijuana and abortion should be done away with in politics.  This often gets misconstrued as I am pro life, pro marijuana and pro gay rights.  HOWEVER… Putting these non-moral (as judged by the conservatives)  issues into the mix creates the left liberals.  Imagine taking away those issues from politics, and the liberal party would be destroyed.  I say this not because I don’t think these issues are important, I say it because it’s creating noise.  I am pro life, however I think the government shouldn’t have a say in any of these issues, and they are only big influences in elections.  The left would be eliminated if those issues were no longer involved. And the conservative party would melt into the rest of the republicans. This election the “alt right” has evolved into more extreme conservatism.  We would start to pay attention to the issues that matter.  I’m not gay, but I advocate for them to have their rights.  I for one am personally tired of the government telling us what to do with our lives and our bodies and these silly social issues.  It’s like we can’t govern our selves so we need the government to tell us how to live.

The Media.

I watch BOTH left and right media.  It’s good to understand both perspectives, but we have to understand that what that right and left bias means, what the agendas are to propagate what messages, and we cannot allow repetitive messages to influence our thinking.  We have to learn to be free thinkers, use our knowledge on the facts, what we have learned from politics and make our own decisions.  At the end of the election so many people were caught up with silly media stories attacking each politician, they couldn’t even tell you what the issues are.

Be careful for media outlets that report constant negativity about certain parties.  Be careful for media outlets that report one certain kind of issue constantly ie. left media likes black on police crime, right media likes to post on anti-muslim and propagates lots of violent and ill-informed stories about muslim violence.  Look at a story and think, who is benefiting from this.  Everything is a racket and most likely someone is propagating the story.  If you see an article about pro choice, and they have an ad for planned parenthood, you can bet your ass off they funded it.  Or recently, the riots have been attributed to being orchestrated by globalists who manipulate the currency to crash markets and capitalize.  Everything has an agenda, and often, we don’t even know what they are.

Be Informed.

Some of us have no idea what is even going on in the world.  Facebook is NOT a source of media.  Although it gets you in the right direction of knowing what is actually going on in the world, most of it is bias and often false.  When I see a subject I am interested in, I go to google and find credible news sources.  Often it’s hard to find credible news sources.  So I just read both left and right and come to my own conclusion based of my own knowledge and common sense and evaluating the sources.  Some people don’t have the best knowledge or common sense unfortunately. But we owe it to ourself to just educate ourselves and be informed.  The more you read on a subject, the more you get informed.  Watch documentaries.  I love documentaries, they are a plethora of information.  Read, read and READ some more.  When you find information that conflicts, dig deeper.  You will mostly always find your answer.

The Complexities.

You can be informed and well read, but at the end of the day, we are all in the dark.  Understanding the complexities of politics and not only the surface of the issues are important.  Like how Trump supported conservative social views during the election to maintain the conservative vote, and won, then shortly announced his liberal social views on not changing laws on abortion, but giving the power to the state, being pro marijuana and stating that he won’t change the gay communities rights.  These are things that I think many people were aware of and his pro conservative views didn’t stray away his supporters.

Then there are the underlying reasons why we have policies that we don’t understand.  Things that are confidential.  Things that the American people cannot understand.  We have to understand there are many secrets we don’t understand.  In my opinion, why would we keep a horrible trade deal w China?  I think they are holding us hostage, we are in debt to them, we continue to go into debt with them, and they control our currency.  Hypothetically lets say Obama wanted to close our trade gap, and they threatened to crash our currency if we don’t give into their demands.  Obama took the diplomatic approach to protect us on the surface, but we are in trouble in the long run.  This is very conspiratorial talk, but hypothetically there are lots of shadows in the dark that we the people do not see.  Let’s say hypothetically Trump took funding out of Israel.  Now the Jew’s who control our banks do something to manipulate our currency.  We’re balancing and protecting ourselves from manipulation. It’s like a game of thrones, a balance of manipulation and power and we don’t fully understand what is truly going on, but we need to factor that into our decisions.  We get mad at this unbalance, and we bring in our troops because that is our strong hand.  This is why we have cabinet members and advisors, not to lead for us or impose their views.  To educate the leader in areas he is not versed in, so that he can make good decisions in the best interest of the people.

Let’s propose I am pro life (right).  However I am pro gay rights (left).  Donald Trump is filling his cabinet with ultra conservatives who are for taking away abortion rights and gay rights.  Realistically, I understand that these are not as big political agendas as they are for the people.  I should use my judgement to decide that Trump is not after taking these rights away.  He has left it open to states to make decisions on abortion.  It is a middle ground where he feels pro life about the subject, but understands the need for much of the population to yield that right, so he is checking the balance by giving the power to the state and giving the people some power to get abortions in certain states.   He needs to do what he feels is right.  And no side is right.  But this is fair as the pro life’s get some lives saved and some structure, where as the pro choicers have some states to practice their rights.  As for gay rights, I’m under the assumption that Trump only supported anti gay for the conservative vote and now that election time is over, he is all about supporting the gay community.

VOTE.

Most people think their vote doesn’t matter.  But look what happened.  I never believed in 1000 years that Trump would win!  But here he is, our next Commander in Chief.  The people have spoken and they want Trump for their next president.  If so many people opposed them, maybe they should have voted.

TO SUM IT UP

  • Learn to debate openly, respectfully and objectively.
  • Understand the left and the right sides and what their objectives are.  Don’t be manipulated into choosing a side. Often people are neither left nor right.
  • Research the issues. Don’t be a retard and allow Facebook memes and media clips to form your ideas and views.
  • Understand the power of the media.  Watch both Liberal and Conservative media and make your own decisions.  Understand  difference between agendas and propaganda from un bias media.
  • Be informed.  Read.  Watch documentaries.  Have debates.  Be active.  Learn about what is really happening in the world.  Don’t give in to laziness and trusting the media.  Do your own research.  Question yourself.  Question others.  Question the media.
  • There are complexities in politics to be understood which involve psychology, confidentiality, security etc.  Our interpretation depends on our own intelligence, our problem solving skills, or ability to make judgements.
  • VOTE.  Your voice counts.

xoxo

 

Single Parenting through Difficult Times


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This whole postpartum experience has been immobilizing and has given me an opportunity to spend more time talking to Kai.  We use to be closer.  She is 11 and I’m trying to salvage our relationship before she becomes a teenager I don’t know. We are very close.

People asked me why I didn’t reach out to family.  Well, we’re very different people and their idea of support is imposing their mormon beliefs on me that this was for the best because I’m not married and whatever else they’re thinking.  Although I know their intentions are well, those are not the right words for me right now.

I noticed Kai’s math grades slipping and I had to believe it has to do with all the stress happening at home.  She has been skimming her reading instead of slowing down and internalizing.  It must be really an unhappy place for her to come home to right now.  I feel like I haven’t been doing enough for her.  And I want to take the opportunity to do focus my energies on her.  The last few months have been all about me and I feel I’ve been neglecting her needs emotionally.

Kai is a smart cookie and she has so much potential and talent.  She should be in sports, learning a foreign language, learning an instrument and art and digital media.  She said she wants to play chess.  I think that is a good idea for her cerebral side.  And chess is good to keep the brain sharp and for logic development.  We cleaned out the bookshelf yesterday and are going to get some new books for her to read.  It’s really simple how a little bit of attention and encouragement can positively effect a child’s development.

I read the power of a name report… Kai is an Aries, a leader natural and her name Carolanne implies great power.  My parent technique of being stern is negative for her growth and may hinder her natural leader tendencies.  I have to learn how to be encouraging instead of downing her talents.  As parents we have to learn what is the most conducive technique to hone their best potential.  Kai generally is a good kid, but when I caught her lying about wearing my $180 fly knits which were now stained in red dirt, she was grounded immediately.  She didn’t even fight me when I gave her “how could you do this to mommy when she’s going through a hard time” look.  She knew what she had done.  So I will keep her on grounding until the cleans them.

The most difficult thing I’ve been trying to figure out is how to get her to communicate.  When discussing hard subjects she changes the subjects and avoids it.  I have to drag out the hard emotions which usually end up in tears.  But it’s usually through impatient force I get her to tell me what’s really going on.  I’ve gotten her to open up on some subjects related to her father not being around, and her anger towards me for being a busy single mom, and now how she didn’t feel happy about her baby sister dying and how it was hard for her to help hold mommy down while I was sick and she was really unhappy.  It was a hard time for everyone.  I held her in my arms and hugged her and we hung out and played video games and did Nu Skin mud masks. (:

I’m still clueless what’s the positive way to get her to communicate with me.  She is so guarded..  very secretive.  I notice her friends talking about boys because she borrows my cell phone to text them or sometimes her conversations from my ipad connect to my iPhone.  I don’t even see anything she says about boys.  If she has an interest in boys, she is very guarded about them, unlike her gossipy friends.  It’s so cute how she is at that age now. (: I’m glad she is making more friends at school now.  I guess it’s time for that phone.

I’m going to put Kai in some kind of physical activities.  Either she can continue boxing and Muay Thai at UFC gym or swimming or sport of choice.  Have her learn a foreign language, possibly Japanese or Chinese.  She wants to play chess.  She doesn’t want to learn piano like her mom, but I’ll let her decide what kind of instrument she wants to play. And I will continue to help her hone her artistic skills.  I’m very proud she won an art contest and her art was displayed at the Academy Art Museum.  A little bit of attention can go a long way in giving a child what she needs.  And I feel so horrible I have neglected some of her needs these last few months while I had a complicated pregnancy.

This experience has waken me up to not take time for granted.  Time is precious.  I felt like I had screwed up with Kai.  I had her at a young age and didn’t share the enthusiasm I do now at turning her into a mini me.  I had wanted a baby so I could have a second chance to do it right and create something amazing, but I forgot that I already have a mini piccasso who still needs me. ❤

I do want to try have a baby again some time in the next 4 years before I turn 35.  It’ll be with complications but I know now what those issues are and how to face them.  I want another little girl. (: But for now I’ll work on my first masterpiece a little bit longer.

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xoxo

Grief


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I found an old stash and lit a half burned joint as I listened to the slow sensual beats of Sade Pandora.

“Ooh hey
I’m trying to decide
Which way to go
Think I made a wrong turn
Back there somewhere

Didn’t cha know”
Eryka Badu
Maybe I should up it up a notch to some “Parra Cuva.”  All this sulking and crying isn’t for me.   No, I leave it on Sade.  Maybe this is exactly what I need right now, so I roll with it…
“My hands are tiedMy body bruised, she’s got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose…

And you give yourself away.”
U2

I try to always see the lesson in every bad situation.  What did I get out of this?  Every tragic experience needs a positive perspective to heal and move on from.  I couldn’t find any positive thing out of being left pregnant by a cheating ex during a complicated pregnancy and then losing that baby.  I’m consumed with grief.

It took me an hour to make my bed this morning. I was so mentally exhausted from the miscarriage that when I came home from the hospital last night after I drank a glass of red wine, I fell asleep in my panties and hospital diaper w nothing but a blanket.  My hair was in a tangled messy bun and my eyes were puffy from crying.  This is not a sight I would want anyone to see me in.  The sheets and blanket and mattress cover I just got out of the dryer were in a ball next to me.

It felt like I was on an adrenaline high all week, anxious and in suspense of what is happening; took some pain killers on Saturday, when I hit my lowest; and dropped ecstasy and fell in love on Sunday when they pumped me full of hormones (oxytocin) post miscarriage; then took a xanax and smoked some weed on Monday to take away the hangover and unbreak your heart.  A new kind of personal low for me and I didn’t know how to feel because I know I’ve been in far worse situations that this and am thankful for what I do have, but it feels equally as bad but in a different kind of way.  A bittersweet kind of emptiness that leaves you scarily alone with your sobering thoughts.

As I slowly made my bed, I had to stop every 2 minutes to cry.  My house looks like a hurricane hit it.  It’ll give me something to do for a month; cleaning so good for the soul.  Clean and cry and think about Serah every step of the day.  I managed to clean out a couple bags today and clean off my  bedside counters.  The room was covered with clothes and junk from being on bed rest for the last two week, and Kai wrecking the room while I was in the hospital.

I think often; I’ve always felt it was appropriate to get out and move on from hard experiences instead of internalizing it and accepting that grief fully. Sitting around, crying and eating foods that make you fat, feeling guilty with every bite, but being so care free that you don’t care anymore.  I use to allow myself to get so care free and out of control and allow my spirit to be free; so free that it scared me into bringing myself back to a centered place before I got too lost out there.  I think this is why experimental drug use and living life on cruise control never harmed me spiritually.  I think it made me a better person; a better mother, friend, entrepreneur, lover, a more open minded individual.

When you learn to love you learn to give, and when you learn the joy that comes from giving to others, you become aware of the high sense of the power of love.  When doing good becomes an actual high we finally realize we are on the right track to obtaining that higher Nirvana we were blindly seeking for.  I now understand the power we possess to warm our own hearts and others with kindness.  When we are full we find a greater purpose in giving love to others in need of love. In learning to accept I have also learned to give.

“I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul.” Sade

I caught Kai, my 11 year old daughter stealing and lying.  She stole my $180 Fly Knits which are now stained with red dirt while I was in the hospital, then lied about it.  I was so mad I swear my uterus was going to fall out.  She knew she had been caught and she didn’t even talk back when I told her she was grounded from the computer and the ipad the rest of the week.  I gave her the look like “how could you do this to Mommy while she’s going through all of this” look and she already knew.

I don’t like grounding Kai that long.  Punishing kids long term is punishing myself because I have to uphold that grounding.  That’s punishing parents. :/  I want to make sure she gets the message.  When she comes home from school I’m going to make her toothbrush scrub those shoes till they are white like new because I took good care of those shoes, they are my favorite gym shoes.  Then we’re going to see what she has to say and depending if she is humbled or not will determine if she is off grounding.  I hope she takes the humble route, because grounded kids are bored kids. 😦

 

Ok Pandora is killing me.  I gotta get to a doctors appointment.

RIP angel Seraphim Ossa Manning

Sometimes pain is the road to transformation.  Grief is necessary to move forward and acceptance is necessary to grow.  

xoxo

Return of Saturn


Recently, I’ve felt a disconnect with people. More than I ever have. I’ve always been very sociable and extrovert: Craving social interaction and having friends. As a child I didn’t have many friends. I’m different. That’s all I know. Children can be mean. They can scar you. They can tease you for not having boobs in the 7th grade. They can pick fights because they’re jealous that you are pretty. That first crush can laugh at you because you wore baggy jeans and hand me downs. I never conformed to the social crowd of one group. I never felt accepted fully, so I fleeted from group to group never fully making friends w anyone: Keeping it on the surface. Anytime I get too close to any group, that is when the trouble arises. Girls can be mean. 

I know that I may come off as rough, but my spirit is gentle and kind and giving. Too many years of being shoved around and taken advantage of can harden you. It makes you not believe in people anymore. As a child, I was forgiving and I craved to fit in and belong. As an adult, I’ve grown cynical and those negative patterns I’ve formed with friends have manifested into adulthood. Adults have their cliques too. The mean girls “you can’t sit with us” groups that make you feel like you don’t belong arep in adulthood too. As much as I feel like an outsider, I don’t want to be a part of that. Or that’s what I thought.

I know I’m different, and I feel as though I am always being judged. Maybe that’s where I fail. It’s rare that I fall into a social group that I get along with. I have very low tolerance for bullshit and when I see something I tend to just turn the other way. As of lately, I feel anti-sociable. People who I have known for years no longer look like friends to me. How have we become so different? Are they judging me? Or is it the other way around? I feel so much relationships are superficial. It’s about who you know, what business and networks can you bring, image, who can get in whose pants. Or the fake people who kiss your ass to your face and talk badly about you behind your back. We know who they are because they do it to our other friends as soon as their backs are turned.  None of it is genuine. 

It’s only until recently my heart has begun to heal. I’ve been highly selective about who I let in my circle. I would rather be alone than surrounded by fake, negative people. I purged my Facebook of my “biggest fans:” my haters. Why do we wake up everyday to open your feed and see someone’s name and think…. Ugh what is she posting again. I am responsible for allowing this to be close to me, because I am entertained from negativity. When my intentions came clearer that positivity is what I want in my life, I BEGAN TO ATTRACT IT. The POWER OF INTENTION and the POWER OF ATTRACTION is real. For the first time, I am attracting people into my life who I feel are kind, giving, positive, successful and non judge mental people. It’s a good feeling because they make you realize all the negative stuff you’ve been holding onto isn’t worth it. As hard as it is to swallow, maybe the source of your pain has been your own doing. 

I’m the type of girl who wants to do everything on my own. One of the hardest lessons I am still trying to learn is to accept help. When I got pregnant and the father left me for another woman, he offered me no support. I can do this on my own, I told myself. I’ve seen darker days and deeper holes. 

Dustin (the father) and I had discussions about having children. I think pregnancy was so unenjoyable for me the first time around being alone and so young, I am scarred. I did not want children. Kai is 11 years old and I am almost free to have a life I was robbed of from a young age. Having been abandoned by his parents who were on drugs and in jail, being a father was important to Dustin. When I found out I was pregnant, Dustin admitted he had been seeing his ex and bullied me into an abortion. By the time I went to the doctors I was not 4 weeks pregnant, I was 13! In the ultrasound I saw a head and feet and a healthy spine and a cute hand wave. The feelings of a baby growing inside me filled me with joy. But at the same time tears of fear because I knew I was doing this alone AGAIN.  Even my drug addict baby daddy #1 managed to grab me meals and take me to appointments when we were kids. Baby daddy #2 at the ripe age of 26 years old changed his number. 

As I moved on from my heart break, I began to move forward and start to think what am I going to do with this pregnancy? I have an uncanny ability to compartmentalize. As fast as I decided to move on, I took an inner look at the situation. I had quit nightlife months before and had some health issues. I just finished real estate school. This is a spiritually growing time for me because of my Return in Saturn forces that have been leading me away form nightlife in devastating and dramatic fashions. I realized the toxicity not only from that environment but from the people I am surrounded by. The money was never worth the poison I allowed into my life. 

As weeks went by, I wanted baby more than anything now. I have things in my Amazon cart and have a baby name list. I dabbled w names: Ossa, Lilith, Seraphim, Dakota, Luna, Seriyna, Keira. I downloaded a few baby aps to entertain my baby jitters. It’s all unplanned and I’m doing it alone but I’m completely confident I am capable of doing this. Is anything ever planned? Or are we just stumbling through life making it all up as we go by, like Captain Jack Sparrow. I like to think I’m the latter lol, but it’s not always so graceful. When I got hospitalized at 19 weeks and I was in a situation where I had a choice to abort or stay in bed with supposedly a 1% chance of baby making it to 25 weeks, an abortion seemed like the easy way out from the responsibility. This was a test. But it came naturally. I wanted to fight for this baby, no matter the outcome, no matter if the doctors said she has a high chance of having mental illness and serious health issues. I spent so much time thinking I would abort it in that case. But when faced with the situation, didn’t blink before I knew that wasn’t an option. 

People keep telling me god won’t give you anything you can’t handle. And I try to see the beauty in all of this. How am I growing? I feel this whole experience is an extremely spiritual time for me. I feel miscalculating a late pregnancy, taking a plan b that failed and the unfortunate circumstances have all been meant to be. I’m learning to be selfless for another life. Although I have a daughter, I was young and made a lot of mistakes. I missed  a lot with Kai because I was too immature to understand it and I don’t want or make those same mistakes. I want to enjoy being a mother this time and be a better mom. I’m so excited Kai is having a sister and we are growing our family. 

Even when I was hurt, I tried to reconcile with Dustin with kindness. I tried to have an open heart. I tried to understand why someone could hurt someone like that? It was simple because he was so selfish that he did things without thinking of others because of his past and pain he had been through. Some allow themselves to be jaded.  I came to learn, when you become empathetic you start to have compassion: and through giving, I began to learn the holes in me were healing. When we live in a world where people take and hurt we are hesitant to do so. But when we learn empathy, it makes it easier to give when you understand someone’s pain. 

I have a white ink Tat on my ribs with tribal that I did when I was hurt and going through a hard time. It’s just a reminder to not be jaded. 
“There is a light that never goes out.” The Smiths.

Now I’m trying to learn the receiving part. Being on bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy is a hellish nightmare. I can’t go to the gym. I can’t work. I can’t leave my bed. I am sooooooo fkn bored out of my skull. At least in jail you have cigarettes, conjugal visits and yard time. No sexy time for me. But this time has allowed me to learn how to accept help. At first I was denying help because I didn’t want to ask for anything. Then a friend made me realize something: sometimes giving is healing too and it’s a two way street and we need to learn to accept with grace. Then some of the mean comments and judgment ensued. And I realized to drop the excess baggage and negativity and embrace the positive. 

Be kind. Be empathetic. Be compassionate. Positive things are coming this way. 

Xoxo

Learn a new language for FREE


On Iphone I downloaded an ap to learn Japanese and Portuguese for free.  To my amazement, my 5 year old daughter plays on my phone and started picking up Japanese.  It’s a game to her.  There’s an upgrade for a few dollars, and you can even buy the entire computer program for only $50.  Programs like Rosetta Stone cost HUNDREDS of dollars.  They have 70 languages.  Check it out!

Learn a new language.  It’s sexy!

xoxo

Kristie Manning

Learn for only $25 a month


I decided that I wanted to go to LA Film School to study audio and music.  Thanks to my friend, Ben Carson, a professional music composer and film producer, I have a decision to make.  Spend $40k on a degree at a music school, or $80k for a fashion design degree, or $25 a month to soak up as much information as I can on Lynda.com?  Ben directed me to this sight.  I guess if you have the patience, you can learn everything on here.    You can watch as many videos as you want.  Not only do they teach in music, but they also have over 70,000 video tutorials in photoshop, adobe cs5, after affects, air, bridge, cold fusion, director, soundbooth,  auto cad, maya, aperture, dvd studio pro, media composer, final cut express, dreamweaver, elements, encore, fireworks, flash, illustrator, and the list goes on . . .

Learn something

xoxo

Kristie Manning

Bikram: Lesson 1


I went to one session of Bikram on Tuesday and I immediately feel lighter.  All the fat that has been growing on my  little love handles, due to bad diet, just melted.  It helps too that I played volleyball for 5 hours yesterday too.  And I’ve been eating light.  Mostly protein bars, yoghurt and fruit.  With 1 good meal a day.  Anyhow, every teacher has a different teaching style, and inform us of different facts throughout the class and each session you learn something new.  So I am starting a new section in my blog: the Bikram Lesson’s section.

LESSON 1:

I learned when certain areas of circulation are cut off in tight poses when you release, the blood flowing circulates problems away.  Scar tissue, and previous injuries and surgeries will heal better.  Bikram has great healing powers.

xoxo

Kristie Manning