What Do I Want?


I am a free spirit. A wild woman, a maneater.  I require a strong alpha male, because I will suck all his power up if he is not strong enough to take me on.  I need someone who puts 100% trust in me, and knows no matter what I do, or how things may seem, or how flirtatious I may even be, my end game is him and at the end of the night I’m coming home to him. I’m not the cheating type.  I have been taken for a ride before, I have had my heart broken, and by no  means am I perfect.  I’ve even broke a few hearts.  But everyday is a winding road, and every heart broken is a new lesson learned, and new path carved.

If we become insecure, jealous people, it will never work out!  Jealousy is one of the most unattractive qualities to me.  From time to time, I have been known to be a jealous person.  But that was because the relationships foundations were tainted with trust issues and infidelity.  I will always try to conceal my jealousy.  As for insecurities, we must take it upon ourselves to make that special someone feel like they are the only one for you.   If they’re not, then why are you in it in the first place? Trust and communication is the foundation of a stable relationship. Take away that and it all crumbles from beneath you.  Remember when loyalty and being in love was enough?

If my husband, for example, came home from a trip and told me that he had slept with a hooker, but out of respect for me, was ridden with guilt, and had to tell me the truth, I’d be very upset.  However I’d probably forgive him.  I am after his soul, not his body.  Sex is merely physical.

“It’s not cheating unless you read poetry.”

I need someone who’s strong enough to let me be queen of my world, but still be the assertive male figure, an equal figure, not a dominating person, someone who will stand up to me  and tell me when I am wrong.  Someone I will respect, not someone I will walk all over.  Where do you draw the line without being my bitch?  I have had very subservient men in my life, but this bores me after a while.  I need someone who is going to accept me for who I am and not try to change me.  I never changed for anybody my entire life, why start now?  I am unique, and an acquired taste.  I am not for everybody.  You either love me, or you hate me.

Love is fleeting, we all wind in and out of love throughout a lifetime.  Some of us are afraid to fall in love again.  I like to jump into things head over heels.  Careless, some would say, but I say that I give 100% and I’m not afraid to have my heart broken.  Maybe I’m addicted to the extreme heights of the rushes of being in love, but I have learned to deal with the anguished lows of sad breakups, and dramatic heartbreaks as well.  Some people think I’m cold, because I can easily break up with someone on the opposite end…

“I’m not into this anymore, and I don’t want to take you for a ride.”  Some say that would be cold, being said to a guy utterly head over heels in love with you, but I call it honest.  Some people can’t handle the truth.  But I think the truth is far better than lies and confusing a person hurt with rejection.

Someday I will be loved.

What I look for in a guy.


Things I look for in a guy…

. funny
. intelligent
. tattoos are sexy *but it’s not a prerequisite
. attractive
. takes care of himself
. this includes exercising and eating healthy
. has good style
. I ❤ metro guys not afraid to be pretty and have a good fashion sense ;D
. color is not an issue, but I’ve always been attracted to exotic men, not white guys
. confident and not the jealous type
. I ain’t sayin I’m a gold digger, but I ain’t messin with no broke nigga
. financially secure and independent
. not needy, and accepting of my busy schedule
. gotta be good in bed ;D

. neat, I can’t stand messy people
. fun to be around
. intellectual
. good with children, family oriented,
. honest
. share similar interests
. someone who respects my space and privacy. Just because I don’t call doesn’t mean I’m not interested. Or
just because I go out with you one time, doesn’t mean I am interested. SO STOP BLOWING UP MY PHONE. I’ll call if I want to hang out.
. don’t make it too easy, take your time.
. I like being romanced. 😉
. someone who shares my lifestyle, a lifestyle that’s not for everybody
. I’ve always been attracted to the shy guy. Shy and quiet, but confident. I am loud enough for the 2 of us. 😉
. a faithful person.
. Someone who’s okay with me stealing the spotlight.
. Trusting
. ambitious, and goal oriented
. I want perfection. Why settle for less? “Raise the bar”, a friend once told me.
. Someone I can grow with, someone who doesn’t bring me down, or encourage me to be unproductive.
. Someone as passionate as me.
. Someone who will tell me when I am wrong.
. Someone who knows how to communicate and work through things.  Nobody is perfect.
. Someone who knows what making love is really about.

OR

JOHNNY DEPP!