Single Parenting through Difficult Times


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This whole postpartum experience has been immobilizing and has given me an opportunity to spend more time talking to Kai.  We use to be closer.  She is 11 and I’m trying to salvage our relationship before she becomes a teenager I don’t know. We are very close.

People asked me why I didn’t reach out to family.  Well, we’re very different people and their idea of support is imposing their mormon beliefs on me that this was for the best because I’m not married and whatever else they’re thinking.  Although I know their intentions are well, those are not the right words for me right now.

I noticed Kai’s math grades slipping and I had to believe it has to do with all the stress happening at home.  She has been skimming her reading instead of slowing down and internalizing.  It must be really an unhappy place for her to come home to right now.  I feel like I haven’t been doing enough for her.  And I want to take the opportunity to do focus my energies on her.  The last few months have been all about me and I feel I’ve been neglecting her needs emotionally.

Kai is a smart cookie and she has so much potential and talent.  She should be in sports, learning a foreign language, learning an instrument and art and digital media.  She said she wants to play chess.  I think that is a good idea for her cerebral side.  And chess is good to keep the brain sharp and for logic development.  We cleaned out the bookshelf yesterday and are going to get some new books for her to read.  It’s really simple how a little bit of attention and encouragement can positively effect a child’s development.

I read the power of a name report… Kai is an Aries, a leader natural and her name Carolanne implies great power.  My parent technique of being stern is negative for her growth and may hinder her natural leader tendencies.  I have to learn how to be encouraging instead of downing her talents.  As parents we have to learn what is the most conducive technique to hone their best potential.  Kai generally is a good kid, but when I caught her lying about wearing my $180 fly knits which were now stained in red dirt, she was grounded immediately.  She didn’t even fight me when I gave her “how could you do this to mommy when she’s going through a hard time” look.  She knew what she had done.  So I will keep her on grounding until the cleans them.

The most difficult thing I’ve been trying to figure out is how to get her to communicate.  When discussing hard subjects she changes the subjects and avoids it.  I have to drag out the hard emotions which usually end up in tears.  But it’s usually through impatient force I get her to tell me what’s really going on.  I’ve gotten her to open up on some subjects related to her father not being around, and her anger towards me for being a busy single mom, and now how she didn’t feel happy about her baby sister dying and how it was hard for her to help hold mommy down while I was sick and she was really unhappy.  It was a hard time for everyone.  I held her in my arms and hugged her and we hung out and played video games and did Nu Skin mud masks. (:

I’m still clueless what’s the positive way to get her to communicate with me.  She is so guarded..  very secretive.  I notice her friends talking about boys because she borrows my cell phone to text them or sometimes her conversations from my ipad connect to my iPhone.  I don’t even see anything she says about boys.  If she has an interest in boys, she is very guarded about them, unlike her gossipy friends.  It’s so cute how she is at that age now. (: I’m glad she is making more friends at school now.  I guess it’s time for that phone.

I’m going to put Kai in some kind of physical activities.  Either she can continue boxing and Muay Thai at UFC gym or swimming or sport of choice.  Have her learn a foreign language, possibly Japanese or Chinese.  She wants to play chess.  She doesn’t want to learn piano like her mom, but I’ll let her decide what kind of instrument she wants to play. And I will continue to help her hone her artistic skills.  I’m very proud she won an art contest and her art was displayed at the Academy Art Museum.  A little bit of attention can go a long way in giving a child what she needs.  And I feel so horrible I have neglected some of her needs these last few months while I had a complicated pregnancy.

This experience has waken me up to not take time for granted.  Time is precious.  I felt like I had screwed up with Kai.  I had her at a young age and didn’t share the enthusiasm I do now at turning her into a mini me.  I had wanted a baby so I could have a second chance to do it right and create something amazing, but I forgot that I already have a mini piccasso who still needs me. ❤

I do want to try have a baby again some time in the next 4 years before I turn 35.  It’ll be with complications but I know now what those issues are and how to face them.  I want another little girl. (: But for now I’ll work on my first masterpiece a little bit longer.

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xoxo

the “Invisible Children”


“There is an invisible war in Africa: one man, Joseph Kony, terrorizing 4 countries.”

“It is the longest running conflict on the continent, and the soldiers are children abducted from their homes and forced to fight.”

“We are a movement seeking to end this conflict and bring them home.  We seek to rebuild schools, educate future leaders, and provide jobs in Northern Uganda.  We are the modivated misfits and masses redefining what it means to be an activists.”

My heart goes out to the children of Africa, especially the families.  I can’t even begin to fathom how it would feel to have your child taken from you.  And to live with the scars of being a child soldier.  It is so sad how low a greedy person will go to get what he wants.

You can donate money and read more at http://invisiblechildren.force.com/landing/s4s

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I’m Pregnant!


I told my daughter… I just had a really big dinner.  She started to rub my belly.

“Is it a boy a girl?”  She questioned.  “Now you have to go the hospital.”  She wants a girl.  “Good Luck sister!”  I sense a bit of jealousy.  It immediately soaked in, she immediately stated that she’s getting more attention because she is in mommy’s belly.   Then she got smart and exclaimed that I’m not pregnant.  “Mommy, you don’t have milk in your breast.”  OMG she is cracking me up!

She just asked me… “How did God make us alive?  Does he hate blank?  So he created?”  LMFAO!  “Maybe Grandma Linda knows.”  My Mom is religious. I’m sure she taught her about Genesis.  I told her God made us with Play Dough.  Who knows?!

I said what if it’s a boy?  I dunno, you change his diaper everyday, you take care of him.  But you do it because you’re his mommy.  I started to wiggle my tummy and she started to giggle and kept insisting I am not pregnant.

If I was pregnant, this would be my second.  But it made me think, Kai Bug needs a little sister to boss around, and get out of my hair. LOL!  The idea of 2nd child syndrome came up.  Personality traits determined by birth order.  lfred Adler, an Austrian psychiatrist who lived around the same time as Sigmund Freud, was one of the first theorists to suggest that birth order may influence personality.  He suggested that birth order leaves a life-long impression on one’s style of life, the way s/he deals with friendship, love, and work. Other things that influence a person are parental attitude, illnesses, disabilities, gender, and the social, economic and religious situation of the family. Other things that should be considered along with birth order are the spacing of years between the siblings, the total number of children, and the parent’s situation over time. The influence of birth order on the development of personality has long been a controversial issue in psychology. Some are in strong agreement that birth order does affect personality, and others disagree completely.

The middle or second child will always be competing for the lime light with the oldest and youngest children. This is one of the main causes of middle or second child syndrome.  Second or middle children usually bemoan their fate as being ignored by everyone in the family. They may grow resentful or all the attention given to the oldest and youngest of the family. Second born children will often try to be the exact opposite in personality, interests, etc. from the first born child. S/he will often do almost anything for parental attention, even if that means being naughty. Parents tend to be much easier and less demanding on the second and third children. Middle or second children have to compete to be heard or noticed, and therefore crave the spotlight in other ways. They may be the loud, boisterous child in school. They may be the center of all their friends’ events.

I am a middle child.

Since we’re talking about pregnancy…


Thomas Beatie, also known as The Pregnant Man, has given birth to a girl, he confirms to PEOPLE exclusively.

Beatie, 34, who began life as a woman and legally switched to a male identity, while preserving his female reproductive organs, and his wife Nancy, 46, welcomed a daughter at an Oregon hospital on June 29. Both Beatie and his daughter are healthy and doing well, he tells PEOPLE.

Beatie, who took twice-weekly doses of testosterone and had his breasts surgically removed during his female-to-male transition, made headlines around the globe last April when he announced in an exclusive interview in PEOPLE and on The Oprah Winfrey Show that he was expecting a child – while legally living as a man.

LMFAO! Reminds me of that season in L Word when Jenny Shecter has that butchy girlfriend, Max Sweeny, and she got pregnant.  Did Max kill Jenny BTW?

If I was a lesbian… I’d be with Maxx.  She’s SMOKIN!

The healing powers of MORINGA “the Miracle Tree”


I first was introduced to Moringa during a stressful time when I was about 7 months pregnant.  I was extremely sick and throwing up and could barely keep any food down.  Not even a fruit popsicle.  Tired of staying at my boyfriend’s house, I went to my parents house.  My Mom said she had just gotten a new drink called Zija.

I had been sick for months.  At first it tasted kind of funny, like a slightly sweet light guava juice with wheat grass in it.  It had a small bite at the tip of the tongue, but that goes away after you get use to it. It tastes better chilled and comes in a tiny can made from a different type of material other than aluminum because that preserves it’s shelf life and doesn’t give off the harmful poisons most of us aren’t knowledgeable  about that aluminum cans do.

I immediately had energy, and ate a huge dinner.  I drank Zija for the rest of my pregnancy and felt great and energetic and had few problems.  Inspired by my personal experiences I decided to become a marketer for Zija.  As it is a MLM company, some people can shy away from that.  But MLM companies can be highly successful if you can set up your downline correctly.  My dad spent $10,000 on big shipments of Zija and brought them out to sell personally.  He bought it under someone under me, so I got commission as well, as the company has a 10 level pay out system.  I drank Zija for years, but unfortunately as the bad economy hit, so did my income, and a $100 a month for 30 cans was just too much. The thing that was interesting about Zija is that there was a formula (I believe it was called Z-atin) they had in it that made your body utilize all the nutrients and absorb more of all that healthy goodness than your body normal would.  This was an all natural drink.  No preservatives, no colors, no artificial flavors.

The main ingredient is a common tree called Moringa.  In Hawaii the Filipino’s all have it growing in their yard.  They call it Calamungi.  In Africa, it is called Malawi.  Madonna’s charitable organization, “Raising Malawi”  in the city of Lilongwe is about growing plants because of their great nutritional and healing values.  It started with Madonna planting a Moringa tree.

The benefits of Moringa are many.

  • 7 types of Vitamins
  • 6 types of Minerals
  • 18 types of Amino acids
  • 46 types Anti-oxidants
  • High concentration of natural Anti-inflammatory agents
  • Natural Anti-toxins, Anti- tumors, Anti-bacterial and Anti fungal.

Moringa Oleifera main medicinal uses:

  • Strengthens the immune system
  • Cleans the body from toxins and heavy metals
  • Extermination of parasites in the intestines
  • Supporting treatment during radiation and chemotherapy
  • Supporting treatment during lack of appetite in children and adults
  • Helping with Osteoporosis treatment
  • Supporting with Diabetes treatment
  • Intestine infections
  • Gum infections
  • Prostate infection
  • Various skin diseases
  • Breathing disease
  • Head aches and Migraines
  • Arthritis
  • Gout
  • Hair Loss

A bottle of Moringa capsules could cost as much as $40! But I might just buy them so I don’t have to deal with mess of powder.

An inexpensive alternative?  My mom now grows her own Moringa trees and dries the leaves and makes it into a powder.  It is easy to care for, is drought resistant, can be grown in poor conditions, and dirt with low ph levels and doesn’t require much care.  Moringa is a wild growing, hardy tree.  Although it is hard to mix with water, as all the pieces of leaves float and don’t mix well, it still is highly effective when I am sick.

Discovery Channel Documentary of Moringa

Giving birth to Kai was easy, even though she was almost 8 lbs.  She’s a big girl, and is the biggest child in her classroom.  Perhaps she is so healthy and big because of my use of Zija when I was pregnant.  When she was little I continued to give her Zija.   She was healthy and didn’t have her first flu until she was over 1 year old.  It’s also a great alternative to boost your work out.  All those nasty supplements on the market can be harmful for your body.  Who am I to talk?  I have been living on Lipo6 for months now.

Nature’s AIDs therapy

Out of all the Moringa forms I have tried, I believe the Zija drink is the most effective.  Maybe because of the Z-Atin formula created to boost the effects.  But possibly, it is a placebo in my head.

xoxo

Kristie Manning