Miss Jet Set Model Contest and Be Positive Cancer Foundation Fundraiser


I want to share a little story with you. A month ago I went on vacation after two years of no vacation time. After losing my dog, my baby, my savings and a lengthy case In family court which had no case in the first place, amost a year later I feel like I am still picking up the pieces.  A couple months ago I found some lumps in my breast we are worried about. I kind of feel a lack of grounding.

While I was in California, I spent a lot of time reflecting the direction of my life. I lost my passion and fire I use to have. I got an email to do this Miss Jet set Contest.  I believe I did it so many years ago. I didn’t expect to actually do well this time.  Something ignited in me and I saw a new way.  I’m excited to move away to California for a while (Long Beach.)  But this isn’t forever. Hawaii is my home. I’ll be back.

I’m focusing on Real Estate but didn’t want to give up my passion for fitness. I most likely will train for my pro card next year. And continue building my website freebikinibody.com. I want to donate 10% of ad sales revenue towards #fbbcleanoceaninitiative. And if I win this contest I will automatically donate 10% as well off the top. I think we live in a world of political division and I would like to spread a positive universal message rather than get caught up in the trap.

I  recently joined a wine club and get my wine for free and got my friends free wine too. I drink wine 🍷 and I know things. 🙊 If you want to ever drink wine w me I am always down for a glass or two. 💋

If you make a donation to the Be Positive Cancer Foundation try doing it during 2 for 1 vote times to maximize your votes.  And don’t forget to use your free daily vote every 24 hours.

Aloha

@angrygymrat

@freebikinibody

#fbbcleanoceaninitiative

Vote for Kristie here.

https://www.jetsetmag.com/model-search/2017/kristie-manning

Currently in First Place


I need all of your guys help to take this competition.  It’s all up to you.  You can cast a free vote every 24 hours, sign up for the email list for multiple votes or make a donation to the Be Positive Cancer for Children Foundation.

I want to take 10% to donate to a charity.
and take 20% to use for marketing for Freebikinibody.com; Which in turn, I want to donate 10% of all profit to initiatives geared towards cleaning the ocean.

I want to share some of my personal ambitions with you.  I would like to start saving an investment fund for Kai to go to college, as she is now 12.  Agriculture land is in my future and I would like to farm organic aquaponic produce and create a self sufficient, eco friendly business that stimulates the Hawaii economy and tourism to America.  It’s a dream of mine to have a small home gym as well which will incorporate into other business opportunities.  My love for animals will flow into the animals I adopt.  I feel horrible for animals locked in cages and I want to rescue some animals.  FreeBikinibody.com is my side project to promote a free woman’s fitness community to involve my passion for fitness with the online realm.  I also write… a taboo subject on strippers and Las Vegas life.  One day I hope to publish that book.  I can be really multi-faceted sometimes.  It’s what makes my heart beat.

“I have a soft spot in my heart for bastards and broken things.”  I really hate bullies, but I also really feel empathy and a soft spot for children and teenagers with hurt and broken families.  And it is one of my longterm goals to incorporate a personal development program with the juvenile court systems to enrich these victims lives through talent, art, music, sports or any other creative outlet, not condemn them.

I have a voice and I seek a platform to be heard.  I may not always say the right thing, I just speak from the heart.

xoxo

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https://www.jetsetmag.com/model-search/2017/kristie-manning

Lost


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Deopak chakra is the root chakra.  The first chakra of the main 7 chakras.  It is ruled by the element of earth, of rooting and grounding.  If you know me, you know I am a wild child, a social butterfly, a gypsy, a winged unicorn that doesn’t want to give up her wings.  I like to listen to root chakra music on youtube while I sleep.  I feel more grounded in the morning.  I focus slowly on breathing and visualize my feet growing into a tree and rooting into the ground until I fall asleep I feel completely supported and grounded.  I feel content in my mind until I fade out.  The first chakra is associated with the following functions or behavioral characteristics:

  • Security, safety
  • Survival
  • Basic needs (food, sleep, shelter, self-preservation, etc.)
  • Physicality, physical identity and aspects of self
  • Grounding
  • Support and foundation for living our lives

I’m on vacation in California trying to clear my mind.  Find my path if you will.  I’m not sure what direction I am going in.  If I stay in Hawaii and do real estate, or move out to Utah in the country, or try to move to a big city.  I don’t know what I want to do but I’m definitely at a fork in the road.  My baby died on election day.  My puppy got run over on Mother’s Day.   I have been ill and dealing with health issues.  And I haven’t found stable work or been able to focus on real estate full time because being a single mother and maintaining income at the same time as trying to launch a career is challenging and often leaves holes in your mommy game.  I’m really in a strange place and I want to find my roots so I can grow into a strong Koa tree that not even a level 5 hurricane could shake.

The day before I left, I got an email invite to join the Miss Jet Set contest.  So I said… what the hell… I posted some of my favorite old modeling pictures and we’ll see where it goes.  I’ll post a couple social media blasts. *Sorry if I spammed you but thank you so much for the continued support! But I didn’t expect to be in first place after the 4th elimination.

I’m currently working on my Freebikinibody.com fitness content website to help women achieve their fitness goals at no price.  I don’t have working capital so I am working on it grass roots by myself and will hopefully later obtain some funding or grants.  As a business owner, I believe it is important to identify your target market and also incorporate social responsibility into your image.  But I wanted this to be genuine.  As someone who grew up in Hawaii, I am very respectful of the aina (land) and the sea.  After watching the Discovery Channel “Plastic Ocean” my heart was heavy.  I became more concerned for the future of our planet, our beautiful marine life and the food we put in our bodies.  You all know I can be politically outspoken and come off as brash and have hard views, but taking care of our world is not something of “the left” or “the right.” Nor is it a Chinese issue or American issue or Mexican issue. We should all care collectively as a whole.  As a personal trainer since 2008, I’m losing the passion for fitness as corporate and mainstream takes over.  I’d rather share what I know with the world and positively impact others lives through a free fitness content website.  I decided to donate 10%  of all profits of my freebikinibody.com website to causes related to cleaning up the ocean.  My heart was warmed when I discovered the 16 year old who invented a device to clean the ocean and they are now raising funds to do so.

As I promote the Miss Jet Contest, I apologize, I do get a little spammy.  I have to be consistent and I thank everyone for the awesome support!  Couldn’t do it without all of you!  I follow and interact in a lot of groups which I have interests in, in certain cities like Honolulu and Vegas, in fitness communities, real estate, wine and spirituality and a few cancer and fundraiser charity groups.    We all have our list of groups we like to follow and interact in.  Yesterday I posted my Miss Jet Set link in a spirituality group I interact with.  Facebook sometimes blocks your posts when you over post, so I guess my comment didn’t go through and they just saw a link.  I woke up to a viral debate on my post this morning.

Many were attacking me while others defended me.  I wasn’t upset or hurt or feeling anything.  I think I’ve learned to have empathy for others who judge people because they have not yet learned the lesson of true grief, loss and empathy.  But it turned into an interesting event.  Perhaps I had influenced a lot of people in an indirect way.  Someone even posted a long video apologizing and dissecting their own feelings and behaviors. Our feelings are a reflection of our own subconscious.

“I am not here for your understanding of who I am. I am here for your understanding of who you are. I am your mirror. How you feel about me, what you see in me, the thoughts that arise from your encounter of me, the judgments you hold about me, are all reflections of you. They have nothing to do with me.” Maroutian

It made me realize I am a genuine person.  That even in my madness and what sometimes seems to be a chaotic life, that it gives me purpose to positively make someones life a little better or inspire someone positively.  That we all have our strengths and weaknesses.  That perhaps the world has been unkind to me so that I may appreciate the beauty in good.  There is no light without dark.  There is no heaven without hell.  There is no good without evil.  That we are all human and on our own paths.  Some of us are at different places.  But we all have something to offer each other regardless of sex, race, country of origin or social status.  I have learned from the lowest of street level pimps and drug dealers, to the top echalon of the elite 1% in the world.  And I too have taught them something in an indirect way.  We are all here to impact each others lives and teach and grow.  I have been on a real bad down swing for a while.  And this experience has changed my perspective on some things and my current mindset, for the better.

I don’t know where my path is taking me, and it scares the hell out of me.  But I do know that the path gets clearer everyday as I acknowledge my fears and mistakes and learn and grow from them.

Last month I tatted my banner on my back: “Not all those who wander are lost.”

I’m late for my 1:00 but I had to get this off my chest.

Here’s the link to the Miss Jet Set 2017 contest.  I am currently first in my divison.  Please continue to vote daily, signup for the mailing list, and if you feel generous then please donate to the be positive cancer foundation for more votes.

https://www.jetsetmag.com/model-search/2017/kristie-manning

Aloha

Kristie Manning

Slip by Elliot Moss


Whoa, whoa, whoa
Whoa, whoa, whoa
Whoa, whoa, whoa
Whoa, whoa, whoa

I won’t keep watching you
Dance around in your smoke
And flicker out
You’re not the light I used to know
I don’t believe in safety nets
Strung below that make it alright
To let go
You gotta hold on

Or it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Or it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Or it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

What’s the matter?
You don’t have enough rain
To make up your storm?
Oooh whatcha look so sad for?
Where’s the light I used to know?

Oh it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Oh it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Where’s that light I used to know?
Where’s that light I used to know?
Where’s that light I used to know?
Where’s the light I used to know?
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Oh it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Oh it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa

Oh it’s gonna
Slip, slip, slip through your
Slip, slip, slip through your hands
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

Above and Beyond pres. Ocean Lab – Lonely Girl


Staring at the top sheet
Listening to my heart beat
Wondering how to say it
Playing over one track
Wanting you to come back
Want to have you here
Lying on a cold sheet
Jump into my car seat
Drive down to the river
Nightlight is reflecting
Somehow I’m expecting
Your voice in my ear
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the things that you do
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl
Lying in the long grass
Watching as the clouds pass
Hands held in silence
Your arms right around me
Feeling glad you found me
Feeling like I’m home
Wish you would remember
April to September
Wanting to be near me
Waiting for the sunrise
Staring into my eyes
You and I alone
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the things that you do
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl
Lie back in my own dream
Playback on a big screen
You and me together
Why give up a love found
Wish that I could write down
What you mean to me
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the things that you do
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back ’cause I’m gonna be a lonely girl
Was it so wrong
You know you said you loved me
Could it be so easy
Just to walk away
Was it so wrong
You know you said you loved me
Could it be so easy
Just to walk away

Faded by Alan Walker


You were the shadow to my light
Did you feel us
Another start
You fade away
Afraid our aim is out of sight
Wanna see us
Alive
Where are you now
Where are you now
Where are you now
Was it all in my fantasy
Where are you now
Were you only imaginary
Where are you now
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now
Another dream
The monsters running wild inside of me
I’m faded
I’m faded
So lost
I’m faded
I’m faded
So lost
I’m faded
These shallow waters, never met
What I needed
I’m letting go
A deeper dive
Eternal silence of the sea
I’m breathing
Alive
Where are you now
Where are you now
Under the bright
But faded lights
You set my heart on fire
Where are you now
Where are you now
Where are you now
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now
Another dream
The monsters running wild inside of me
I’m faded
I’m faded
So lost
I’m faded
I’m faded
So lost
I’m faded

the Road Less Traveled


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I’ve traveled paths many would never dare.  Path’s that people judge with dismay and fear. I chose the path less traveled.  I chose adventure.  I chose to live.  I chose to make my own decisions.  I chose to go against the grain and march to my own beat.  I chose to be a free thinker.  I chose to say what was on my mind without thinking.  I chose to live “out there” so that my life was so out of control, I had no choice but to become centered again to find my true master.  I chose to be misunderstood.

There’s a lot of lessons to learn in taking the road less traveled. Through empathy  comes understanding.  Through heartbreak do you only learn to love.  Only through loss do you learn to appreciate.  Through the pains of greed you learn the desire to give.  Through loneliness comes self discovery.  Through addiction you learn control.  Through vanity, you learn to be humble.  Through failure do you learn to become more disciplined.  Death gives you the gift of life.  Through pain comes transformation.

I never had a lot of friends growing up.  I never was popular.  I learned to be mean to keep people away in a subliminal way at a very young age.  It’s easier to keep people away than face rejection.  I don’t know if it’s my strong personality, my strong opinions.  Beauty is it’s own glass ceiling.  It’s a gift and a curse.  Some women can be insecure and drag you down because they are jealous of your beauty.  At the same time, I have an uncanny ability to attract people from all spectrums of the rainbow, including the wrong kind of attention.  CREEPERS and STALKERS.  Lately,  I can be in over the top bitch mode to push people away and it doesn’t always work.

Something simple as smiling more can change peoples perspective of you.  I have horrible RBF (resting bitch face) and don’t smile a lot.  I’m horrible at taking compliments.  Acknowledging them in a positive way with grace is something I am challenged with.  I think people have pre-dispositioned ideas about who they think they are.  What we put out to the world, and who we really are can often conflict and be different things.  I’m a Gemini.  And my rising sign is Scorpio.  Your rising sign is exemplary of how the world perceives you and the image you project.  The Gemini and Scorpio are two COMPLETELY OPPOSITE signs in the Zodiac.  Where Gemini is highly communicative, confident, a social butterfly, very forgiving, fun and a fiery lover and highly intellectual and super indecisive; the Scorpio is mysterious, highly sexual and passionate, jealous,  unforgiving, however highly decisive and assertive.  See the oppositional traits?  Who I project to the world can often be the complete opposite of who I really am.  I had an ex once tell me, the person I am when we are home together alone is different from what others see.  It’s beautiful when you allow someone to see you as you truly are.  Maybe he’s one of the few people I actually allowed to see.  It’s not that I’m a fake person by any means.  I think I’m a pretty awesome person, but I don’t feel like everyone is deserving of my awesomeness.  What I’ve learned in this world is it is pretty fucked up, and people generally suck.  You have to filter through the bad and be selective about finding the good energy.  Once you find that energy you will notice that you will continue to attract good energy.

I’ve taken some hard roads.  But I don’t regret any of it.  It’s our pains and strife that mold us into the person we are today. Without a piece of shit baby daddy, I wouldn’t know how to appreciate something good.  He made my life so miserable, that I’m appreciative of anything that falls short of “piece of shit baby daddy ” level.  I looked at my situation a month ago.  I was 5 months pregnant in the hospital with zero support from the asshole who abandoned me, failing to make an income, begging for money on a go fund me, and barely making acceptable care for my 11 year old daughter.  Yeah, things were pretty hard, but it doesn’t compare to that time when my ex was strung out living in the “crack head motel” with $20 in my pocket, eating corned beef hash and ramen noodles.  I’ve seen darker days.  So even if I want to cry and feel sorry for myself, I know that I have seen worse.  Sometimes life is just like FUCKED, but you pick yourself back up.  Everyday is a winding road.  And every day you have different roads to take.  What road will you take today?  The road that is easy?  Or the road less traveled?

xoxo

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Haunt Me


Haunt Me
Haunt me
In my dreams
If you please
Your breath is with me now and always
It’s like a breeze
So should you ever doubt me
If it’s help that you need
Never dare to doubt me
And if you want to sleep
I’ll be quiet
Like an angel
As quiet as your soul could be
If you only knew
You had a friend like me
So should you ever doubt me
If it’s help that you need
Never dare to doubt me

xoxo

Single Parenting through Difficult Times


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This whole postpartum experience has been immobilizing and has given me an opportunity to spend more time talking to Kai.  We use to be closer.  She is 11 and I’m trying to salvage our relationship before she becomes a teenager I don’t know. We are very close.

People asked me why I didn’t reach out to family.  Well, we’re very different people and their idea of support is imposing their mormon beliefs on me that this was for the best because I’m not married and whatever else they’re thinking.  Although I know their intentions are well, those are not the right words for me right now.

I noticed Kai’s math grades slipping and I had to believe it has to do with all the stress happening at home.  She has been skimming her reading instead of slowing down and internalizing.  It must be really an unhappy place for her to come home to right now.  I feel like I haven’t been doing enough for her.  And I want to take the opportunity to do focus my energies on her.  The last few months have been all about me and I feel I’ve been neglecting her needs emotionally.

Kai is a smart cookie and she has so much potential and talent.  She should be in sports, learning a foreign language, learning an instrument and art and digital media.  She said she wants to play chess.  I think that is a good idea for her cerebral side.  And chess is good to keep the brain sharp and for logic development.  We cleaned out the bookshelf yesterday and are going to get some new books for her to read.  It’s really simple how a little bit of attention and encouragement can positively effect a child’s development.

I read the power of a name report… Kai is an Aries, a leader natural and her name Carolanne implies great power.  My parent technique of being stern is negative for her growth and may hinder her natural leader tendencies.  I have to learn how to be encouraging instead of downing her talents.  As parents we have to learn what is the most conducive technique to hone their best potential.  Kai generally is a good kid, but when I caught her lying about wearing my $180 fly knits which were now stained in red dirt, she was grounded immediately.  She didn’t even fight me when I gave her “how could you do this to mommy when she’s going through a hard time” look.  She knew what she had done.  So I will keep her on grounding until the cleans them.

The most difficult thing I’ve been trying to figure out is how to get her to communicate.  When discussing hard subjects she changes the subjects and avoids it.  I have to drag out the hard emotions which usually end up in tears.  But it’s usually through impatient force I get her to tell me what’s really going on.  I’ve gotten her to open up on some subjects related to her father not being around, and her anger towards me for being a busy single mom, and now how she didn’t feel happy about her baby sister dying and how it was hard for her to help hold mommy down while I was sick and she was really unhappy.  It was a hard time for everyone.  I held her in my arms and hugged her and we hung out and played video games and did Nu Skin mud masks. (:

I’m still clueless what’s the positive way to get her to communicate with me.  She is so guarded..  very secretive.  I notice her friends talking about boys because she borrows my cell phone to text them or sometimes her conversations from my ipad connect to my iPhone.  I don’t even see anything she says about boys.  If she has an interest in boys, she is very guarded about them, unlike her gossipy friends.  It’s so cute how she is at that age now. (: I’m glad she is making more friends at school now.  I guess it’s time for that phone.

I’m going to put Kai in some kind of physical activities.  Either she can continue boxing and Muay Thai at UFC gym or swimming or sport of choice.  Have her learn a foreign language, possibly Japanese or Chinese.  She wants to play chess.  She doesn’t want to learn piano like her mom, but I’ll let her decide what kind of instrument she wants to play. And I will continue to help her hone her artistic skills.  I’m very proud she won an art contest and her art was displayed at the Academy Art Museum.  A little bit of attention can go a long way in giving a child what she needs.  And I feel so horrible I have neglected some of her needs these last few months while I had a complicated pregnancy.

This experience has waken me up to not take time for granted.  Time is precious.  I felt like I had screwed up with Kai.  I had her at a young age and didn’t share the enthusiasm I do now at turning her into a mini me.  I had wanted a baby so I could have a second chance to do it right and create something amazing, but I forgot that I already have a mini piccasso who still needs me. ❤

I do want to try have a baby again some time in the next 4 years before I turn 35.  It’ll be with complications but I know now what those issues are and how to face them.  I want another little girl. (: But for now I’ll work on my first masterpiece a little bit longer.

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xoxo